So, it’s our last weekend of the tour. I have said it a hundred times, but this weekend is bittersweet! Bitter because Hector and I have made so many good friendships, and sweet because we are ready for some time off and the beach! As I think back over this tour, I cannot even begin to count the many ways I have been blessed and the fun I have had. Yes, there have been hard days, but overall it’s been a great experience and so much fun. I could name all the crew members and how they have been encouraging, helpful, and just fun…but it would take forever. They have been incredible. Not to mention my wonderful husband who has supported and loved me every step of the way; patient with my rantings and understanding of my responsibilities. I will forever be grateful for this time with him and wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world!
Well, my real reason for writing is that not only is this weekend hard because we are parting ways with great friends, but it is also my last weekend on the road with Casting Crowns…for now. I realized I had not shared that with many of you. After praying and seeking God on this summer, I have decided He is calling me to stay home. I will admit this was a hard decision and an even harder reality as it approaches. My time with the band has been rewarding, challenging, exciting, fulfilling, and an absolute privilege! I believe God is calling me to this for several reasons. I believe it will be best for our crew as we scale back to 4 crew guys to load, set-up, run the show, tear down and load out each show. We are adding some elements to the show this summer that really calls for another multi-skilled crew member. (Skills which I don’t have). However, our two buses are packed FULL. God began laying this on my heart several months ago and challenged me to trust him and to “do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others.” (Phil. 2:3-4) Now, let me clarify, this verse is SO tough, but it was so clear, that I just have to proceed on faith and trust He is in control and if I’m supposed to travel again He will make provisions for that. I truly believe by me staying home, the crew will be more effective and the days will run smoother. I have loved my job and working with Melanie! She has been such a blessing by training and teaching me the ways of the road and just giving me the opportunity to be a part of this ministry.
In addition to this challenge, God has also been working on my heart and giving me a desire to be home…home with our student ministry and home with our incredible friends who love and support us. I’m excited to watch God use me in Rome in ways I haven’t been able to be used while traveling. It is refreshing to know God not only calls us to something but he equips us and if we “delight ourselves in the Lord, He will give us the desire of our hearts.” And I believe he changes those desires as he prepares us for what’s next. I’m sorry this is sappy and long, but please be in prayer for us as we finish up and transition into me being home again. Fear still creeps up and clouds my faith, but I continually have to lay it before the Lord and claim His promise to protect and provide my every need. I covet your prayers! Thank you for being such incredible prayer warriors and traveling this wonderful journey with us.